Defying Gravity

When you're thrown feet away to the core of the earth you'll be at the core of the earth. That's how the gravity works. But not for me.

I'm done with tears. Done with blaming others. I've taken my time to grieve. I know anger won't change anything. Not even a bit. No matter how much I say the F word to the F people, I know it won't change anything. It won't change the decision, it won't even change the tiny useless brain of theirs. The only thing that will be changed is just me. Become worst. I don't wanna fill my life with anger -I'm already full with anger by default- This is not a bad luck. This is also not a bad story of life of mine. This is my destiny though, and it's just another chapter of my life. A chapter that will lead me to another greater story..once my friend wrote when you can't see the bright side, polish the dull side. I'll do that. No matter how easy it's gonna be. I'm not gonna let them win. This is not my fault. I don't deserve this. So I will show them the way I play this game.

I'm fine now. I know I will..if this year is really not my year...then next year is gonna be mine..

M

Mourning Period

My job placement came up and I just lost the love of my life.

I don’t know what else to write. I just lost my touch. Guess that I really need to take my time to rolled at my bed covered by tears. For a while...

Maria

Things I Want My Kids to Posses

1.    Swimming skill. I saw Jaws last weekend, and I’ve been convinced more than ever that swimming skill is definitely needed. So I will demand my kids to have swimming lesson since the very early of their age.

2.    Looking back that I don’t get along with thing named art and now dying wishing to have those kind of skill. I don’t play any music instrument, I don’t sing, I don’t draw, I don’t dance, just name it. I just don’t do art. That’s why I want at least my kids to be well heard in a karaoke room.

3.    Get up really early in the morning is soooo not my thing. Though I do know that it will do lots of good things when you’re up early. So…sorry kids mommy will want you to get up early every working or holiday mornings. –I’m still wondering how to make this happens, but since I already took the obligation to deliver them to this world so I guess I’ll let their dad teach them this–

4.    Reading. I never like reading. I only read the first paragraph and the last one. Then I make my own conclusion from the very few words I have read. Guess a reviewer is not a suitable job for me –Yes. It was my previous job. So shut up!– that’s why I want my kids to enjoy any kind of reading. –Again, I’ll let their dad take care of this–

5.    Looking for someone having their blue jeans tighten up perfectly on their long legs takes your breath away for a second. I want my kids to be the one who will take your breath away someday. –If I could, I would take this responsibility. But I can’t. Don’t ask why, I just can’t. so we’ll leave it to their dad again-

So, is there anyone who meet the requirements interest to apply?

Have a nice after holiday Thursday,

Maria