I leave 2011 with resolution(s). Never did before but now somehow I decide to have my own New Year resolution. To take a bath exactly twice a day –I even bought a new soap for this–. To wake up at first alarm ringing –I usually get up after hundreds of snoozing– it’s not something big –as an at all– but at least I have something to pursue in year 2012 (now ya’ll know how cheap I am) –I don’t even bother to put the word WEDDING on my resolution even that word appears in almost of my friends’ guessing– ; that apparently self discipline caught my eyes more than anything else.
So anyway, I had a New Year’s Eve beach party with bunch of my friends. We had a lot of fun. We tried so hard to wake up any muscle left in our exhausted body to support our eyes to stay open –so we won’t miss any hotties who pass our path–, our feet to walk and to dance a bit, our mouth to yell together with the crowd when the countdown begin, and our brain to save a little space for breathing so it will still be ready for a map reading.
What is New Year exactly? It’s just the same old January to December routines. Get up at 5.30 –now at first alarm ringing– do the pre working activities; finish your breakfast than run into the office –and to me it is literally run– ; sit on your cubical to catch a break for a while and start doing your working activities; then go home and have your post working activities. It is robotic. People say find something new to live up your life. But what if finding something new is already become a part of your robotic activities? On that sand beach I stood, side by side with my friends and thousands of other men and women from around the world in a moment to do the transition whether I decide to make my first step in 2012 with the same old 2011 me or the new me.
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| Jump attempt no. 728. Status: Failed as hell :D |
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| Sukses setelah percobaan melompat yang ke 729 kali. Meski yang paling kanan agak mingslek. So with this we pronounce 'WELCOME 2012!' |
It’s still mid January but I already added two things to my resolution for this New Year. Stay busy –just to protect my brain to become devil’s workshop– and start my - should’ve done million years ago - money saving. I need to have saving for let’s say…a wedding? –There!! I said it– far and away vacation, and last but the most to keep me feeling secure. The first two of my resolutions are still struggling to find its gut to come to me face to face..xixixiixixxiii..
So I bought this to keep myself busy
And this
And this also
Don’t forget this –a baby step to a journey to be a professional writer–
And trust me it’ll keep me busy for the next hundred years :D
Then I bought this to start my saving :p
Now you know how determined I am. I am soooo taking this seriously!! ha..ha
So I welcome 2012 not with dreams (not anymore), in a one hour Disney movies dreams bring you happily ever after ending, but in a real world, or should I say in my real world dreaming is tiring. You keep wishing things to happen just to find out that you and that kind of stuff are not meant to be together. You hold your dream in your hands and dying to keep it steady and at the end of the day you have to throw those dreams to be swept away by the heaviest wave with exactly the same hands you use to protect it.
I do still have goals, and hopes, and so called dreams for this year ahead. Start everything simple. Live for today (in a good meaning). Mend every little thing which becomes root of the big thing in my life -I suppose-. Bringing my resolution into reality is definitely will change my whole life into a better phase, a better individual, a better co-worker, a better friend, a better mate, a better daughter, a better sister, even a better someone to meet on a street corner.
So I leave everything behind. Memories. The aching heart. The disappointments. The tears which I’ve been crying for the whole damn past few years. And my mourning period.
So happy New Year ya’ll or if it’s too late to yell it at this moment then I will say happy mid first month of this wonderful not full of dream but full of life and success New Year.
-Maria-
