When Going to A Movie is a Luxury

It’s been almost a year I live in an island with no:

1. Movie theaters 
2. Malls 
3. Franchise fast foods 
4. Franchise supermarkets 
5. Franchise restaurants 
6. Franchise beauty shop or any other franchises, just name it

When we want to have them, we need to get to the island next to this. Of course with extra cash for:

1. A round trip ferry boat ticket 
2. Taxi to deliver you from the seaport to the place and back to the seaport

The money you cost for that extra is waaaaaaaaayyy higher than the money you cost for your main purpose. Then movie theatre really is a luxury here. You start to lose your sight for the latest movie played and talked in the entire world.

I’m not a big fan of a movie theatre but when there are moments when you don’t really into some movie but this movie is the final sequel and you’ve already watched all the prequels, or this just a common movie but everybody is talking about it. So like it or not it is a must seen movie. You just don’t want to sit there in the middle of a conversation with your fellas with your mouth open and the look in your eyes says ‘what the heck are this entire people talking about?’ –Trust me, people who do that when you’re talking about something is a real life pain in the ass–

I just had that kind of movie ping moment last week. It was really hard to find a right time to go to a movie since beside the extra money you also need extra 2 hours to get there. You do remember when I talked about extra money right? That factor makes us draw as much agenda as we possibly could do when we get there. Just like the wise man said ‘killing two birds –or more– with one stone’ haha –it is the refined version of budget effectiveness–

Humans!!

You used to hate traffic jam; running through the sidewalk snatching taxi; queuing on the ticket box on a movie theatre or on some crowded restaurant which still able to make you willing to wait hours for a table; driving around the parking lot for hours just to wish any luck to get a parking spot in a mall; breaking through bunch of people in discount hunting.

It’s funny when you have a life far away from the city crowd. You’ll have these much time to deliberate with yourself. Then you just realize it more than ever. That you. Miss. THE city crowd. Real bad. ahahahahhaha.

You really don’t miss your water ‘till the well runs dry do you?

Have a wonderful holiday everybody!!

-maria-

Neither To Be Ignored Nor To Be Allowed To Interfere Too Much

I live in an era where you can wash your hands and make them germ free without any soap and water; that when you clap your hands one time you can turn on the light in your room and when you clap it two times you can flush your toilet.

When I have kids I want them to be an astronaut where they can literally put their footsteps on the moon and to find every reasonable explanation what is going on in places other than the earth, I want them to be a doctor where they can provide scientific solution for every human body condition even when they’re spitting nails. I always want scientific explanation for everything –even just a boyfriend coming late; scientific explanation is still required–

But somehow; somewhat; sometimes I am superstitious.

It’s hard to not think that superstition things are exist when you live in a tradition where I come from. We count birth date of a couple who wants to get married to determine their wedding date. My grandmother burned my favorite blue jean to repel bad luck because that jean was the one I wore when I fell from my motorbike which causes a small tiny little injury on my left ankle. When there is any eyelash falling out we consider it as someone out there is missing us then I would pick them and put it on my hair so the person who misses me will miss me eternally.

Just a couple of weeks ago I found out that my best friend’s mom was diagnosed for a pancreas tumor. The night before she had her surgery I dreamt that I lost one of my front teeth in which it would be interpreted as the dreamer will face someone’s death. And I swear it felt so real. I got freak out and called my boyfriend which he didn’t pick up; I texted my friend which he didn’t text me back; I called my sister and she also didn’t pick up the phone. I got scared even more. But it was nothing, not even a hint. Because I forgot the fact that I called and texted them on 3 AM in the morning and it was a weekday..ha..ha..

So everybody is fine, my mom and dad are fine, my sister is fine, people that I care are fine, the surgery went well. Thank God. And hopefully the surgery will do just fine for her.

I haven’t said a lot of prayer lately. Which I know that will always be the reason I’m having the irrational thought. I got scared of tiny little unimportant things, because I don’t have a strong enough barrier for my faith. That I would easily sweep by my own thought which most of the time I found that I always have a bizarre way of thinking.

Don’t ignore them too selfishly. Just use them as a warning for the path you will choose. But have faith that He’s up there watching and never sleeps. Besides that, we have to admit that it always fun to say “It’s a sign!” isn’t it?

-maria-

Crazy Little Thing Called Me

So lately :

1. There’s just too many things going on in my head
2. I’m furious to a huge number of small things 
3. It feels like I wanna get out of myself just to see am I really being awkward as everybody says or it’s just them 
4. The feeling of ‘I need to be good so I can be legally cocky’ get even stronger 
5. I’m dying for girlfriends who can slap me in the face and tell me that I’m acting bitch and need to change 
6. I don’t fit my environment 
7. I clean up –how messy is that?!?– 
8. I forget when was the last time I had my goodnight sleep 
9. I’m broke 
10. I cancelled my karaoke time 
11. I lost my wedding gut again 
12. I want to have my own vehicle 
13. I cry more than ever 
14. I don’t have any new pair of shoes for the pass NINE FREAKING MONTHS 
15. I don’t have any new bags for ALSO nine freaking months –correction. I had new bag last month. But it was a GIIIIFFFFTTT– 
16. My monthly period has gone but the PMS still attached to me 
17. I start to care about others but then 5 minutes after that I found out that others don’t give a s**t about me so then I hate myself for doing that 
18. I need to be selfish again 
19. Awry is the best word to describe my feeling for everything 
20. I dream of a finance minister but my effort is even lower than the 5^th grade 
21. I beg for a better task. But when it comes I beg my boss to take it back 
22. I do still think that other is stupid  but the truth is I am
23. I got confused on a simple mathematical explanation but when I finally get it at the end of the 100^th explanation I still think that the mistake is on the formula AND the presenter. Just not me 
24. I scream my thought too loud 
25. I am still not being able to join the ‘social smiler’ group. I don’t smile when I found that there is no reason for me to smile at any occasion even when I need to impress someone 
26. I HATE. I mean this. I HATE the words ‘NEVER MIND’ a lot!! 
27. I hate people who’s being ignorance to what happen around them 
28. I dream of impossible. I want the world to have the same page in mind as I am 
29. I don’t call home for weeks 
30. To conclude all those points: I’m a real life pain in the ass 

-m-