Crazy Little Thing Called Me

So lately :

1. There’s just too many things going on in my head
2. I’m furious to a huge number of small things 
3. It feels like I wanna get out of myself just to see am I really being awkward as everybody says or it’s just them 
4. The feeling of ‘I need to be good so I can be legally cocky’ get even stronger 
5. I’m dying for girlfriends who can slap me in the face and tell me that I’m acting bitch and need to change 
6. I don’t fit my environment 
7. I clean up –how messy is that?!?– 
8. I forget when was the last time I had my goodnight sleep 
9. I’m broke 
10. I cancelled my karaoke time 
11. I lost my wedding gut again 
12. I want to have my own vehicle 
13. I cry more than ever 
14. I don’t have any new pair of shoes for the pass NINE FREAKING MONTHS 
15. I don’t have any new bags for ALSO nine freaking months –correction. I had new bag last month. But it was a GIIIIFFFFTTT– 
16. My monthly period has gone but the PMS still attached to me 
17. I start to care about others but then 5 minutes after that I found out that others don’t give a s**t about me so then I hate myself for doing that 
18. I need to be selfish again 
19. Awry is the best word to describe my feeling for everything 
20. I dream of a finance minister but my effort is even lower than the 5^th grade 
21. I beg for a better task. But when it comes I beg my boss to take it back 
22. I do still think that other is stupid  but the truth is I am
23. I got confused on a simple mathematical explanation but when I finally get it at the end of the 100^th explanation I still think that the mistake is on the formula AND the presenter. Just not me 
24. I scream my thought too loud 
25. I am still not being able to join the ‘social smiler’ group. I don’t smile when I found that there is no reason for me to smile at any occasion even when I need to impress someone 
26. I HATE. I mean this. I HATE the words ‘NEVER MIND’ a lot!! 
27. I hate people who’s being ignorance to what happen around them 
28. I dream of impossible. I want the world to have the same page in mind as I am 
29. I don’t call home for weeks 
30. To conclude all those points: I’m a real life pain in the ass 

-m-